First true love. Thursday, December 15, 2011 @ 7:53 PM

Yup, may we have long lasting friendship. :) He sent me text yesterday saying how happy he was to see me smiling and laughing with him and the rest at the car park after band. I was browsing through all my albums at fb and i found that picture. That's the day where we fly kite, my first time flying kite i mean. And also the day where we celebrated our 7th Monthsary and both of our birthday's since it falls on 3 straight days. :) Reading all the comments people wrote back then make me realize how lucky and happy we were to have each other. All the memories i had with him will be kept as memories.
So yesterday there's band praqctise at red house and we shooed -.- two residents complain about the noise. So we dispersed into groups. Then went Mac with Maam Afiqah, Sir Muz and Hafiz and we made our way to last year's practis place. On our way there Dahliah's slipper broke cus Syahindah stepped on it by accident. XD And so, terpakse curi a slipper from a block. Gotta admit it was quite funny but scary. Then got into out march in formation that wasn't a sucess and we got dismiss since the band leader wasn't dont with the formation. I was so semangat to do the marching in. -.- Then we slacked at Resident Corner and i played temple run. Guess what? :D I hit 1 million!! Ahahaha i was super happy when i got that. >< hahaha. Then slacked at carpark and that's where i had fun laughing and teasing each other. :) Everybody was in a good mood. Then went to qis house to pick up her money to buy fred perry bag. Then i was off to Lakeside alone -.- Went back home at around 8.15 and watched Ra.One with family and cousins.
So yeah, thats all. And oh, me and qis will be having the same bag next year. n.n i just cannot wait for school to reopen. I miss my cliques not the class. I miss adam so much!! >:/ He said he's coming for POP. Hmmm lets see.... Ohya, leaving for Desaru today. Going on a holiday like at last! :D I wanna go shopping but .... see first uh hah. K i'm off. Byeeeeeee.

boo... Saturday, December 3, 2011 @ 7:48 PM
Sooooooooo, its been kinda long since ive updated my blog. So where were i the past few days? Busy having band and packing to move out. Yup, i move out already from 739 to 29. I was just about to love tht neighbourhood cus many ppl stay near me and stuffs just tht the neighbourhood is complicated. Well, atleast i got a balqis, syahmi and raikhal tht stay near me. And more? Somemore its near to school, 10mins walk only. Heeee. Just few days ago i moved in. Thanks to the help of ipin, alif hilmi and syahmi. It was a last minute thing uh. Then comeby Dahliah and Balqis. What a kecoh night for us esp when we got wet at the back of lorry cus it rained. Today marks the 4th. And his planned to UK was canceled due to some reason. So i was having trouble thinking whether i should or not sent him a good safe trip and more stuffs in the msg, and in the end i did. I didn't expect him to reply until today morning he replied saying he's not gg and stuffs. So yeah. Many things i expect from me and him to be as in less the a couple but i dont think its gonna happen. I can feel the little hope of me and him, but i take it tht its just nothing. Its never going to happen. Just tht, i hope he wont get into trouble and have happiness in life. Though i cant forget wht he did to me last time, im trying not to look back at the past to remind hw stupid i was to give my trust to him. I wonder if he regrets what he had done to me....

just fml... Tuesday, November 29, 2011 @ 4:34 AM
just came back from the hospital and it wasn't a pleasant come back from there. many things happen. first, piggy cried. its my first ever time seeing her cry bcos of tht person and i just feel like crying with her. haiss i pity la. at first, when all my friends came, i was happy to see them. then we somehow started to talk about things. we became detective and look at photos. fucking heartbreaking. i never regret sending him tht text message. it was a good thing i did. if not, until now i wont know tht those photos existed. so what if you came and visit and tell my bestf tht you cant sleep thinking of me got admitted to the hospital? is tht only time you think about me or for past few days you have huh? i dont really trust what you said about your love towards me. even if you want to prove me to me..... pfft try your fucking damn best. its still hard for me to call you a jerk. but then, i nvr knew those photos until today. you want revenge on me? pfft have i ever put my hand over a boy's neck, stay at bed with two girls or have i ever lent my shirt to a guy? i trust whtever you do there and looks like you gave me craps. you took advantage of it huh. now i feel like accusing you cus i can see all the evidence. i think you deserve shits in your life. goodluck.

wheres chicky... Monday, November 21, 2011 @ 4:56 AM

well chicky is at Bandung right now. I wanna go holidays! >:( so hows my life? my life has been okay. nothing bad happen, nothing good happen. but i know, i'm happy right now. no more burdens. :) got close with a new clique. as usual, funny people. just can't wait for POP. and yes, i still think about you when i post this. but sadly, it doesn't have any good impact of me.

stupid me... Saturday, November 19, 2011 @ 12:46 AM

im saving myself for a better. i think i've hold on for too long. i don't wanna hurt myself because of him, i dont want to be sad because of him. i just want to be happy. ysterday night was the night where i told myself i wanna let go of him cus of certain reasons. i want to let go because i'm scared to be use and to be play too. i've been used once, and im not gonna let the him do it to me like wht my crappy ex did to me. i don't wanna be use by him just because he knows im here for him to guide him along the way. i'm not some kind of slut to be use ok. letting a girl use your shirt during chalet. what is tht? i dont know what kind of stuffs you did at chalet but i told you tht i trust you everything you do there. i dont know if you took advantage of it but i just trust you what ever things you do there. its so nice of you to lent your shirt to a girl huh? :) i wonder wht kind of things you do there. i never say tht i accuse of having a girl behind my back. i even apologise if what i said was wrong and hoping for an explanation frm you. and you gave me harsh things back. well, this time im not gonna look back. i told myself that enough is enough especially doing this kind of things to me. i feel so stupid trusting you. i dont want to be treated like wht one of my ex did to me. this time, i know i won't look back. i just wish you happiness in life.

its you... Wednesday, November 16, 2011 @ 3:39 AM


i dont have to wish to have this. because i already got one by someone whom i never thought there would be a connection between the both of us. <3 its amazing how he suddenly came into my mind when i read this.

hopefully... @ 3:09 AM

i hope when you said you love me, it really means you do. not just because you get to do things you did with like the past. but i really hope you said it because im something in your life.

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