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I fail, again .... Sunday, November 6, 2011 @ 5:47 AM
so i made him mad which i didn't to do it. all i wanted to do was to help him in life and change. but guess, he doesn't want that anymore. i guess, i will just leave him alone. i think its better if i just think and wait for him for the time being. before i go looking at his fb profile, i always kuat kan semangat if happen i get to read something that make me sad or heartbroken. well, i guess i failed, again. god. it was so hard to handle him. i wonder why he once pleased me so easily in the past, while i don't. well, i wish i can. but its kinda irritating when i can still feel the hope in us being friends together again. well idk.... i guess its not the goodbye that hurts, its the memories that follows. i wonder if he feels the same way as i do. :/ haish. idk. i got a deshavu. in my dream, i dreamt that he scold me fuck. and that dream i dreamt was on 4 November. pfst, what a date to dream that kind of dream. and two later, he really did scold me fuck. cool deshavu huh? :/ my feelings for him are hard to explain. all i can remember right now is the moment when he allow me to guide him through life and said that we will be friends with no grudges; that moment when he made me happy. i wonder if he ever gave me me another change, or will i even take tht change. haish idk... i dont want him to be hurt, and i dont myself to get hurt bcos of him. all i wish is happiness in his life. :')
