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so unforgettable... / i lost one, who's next... / if it was easy... / i got no guts... /
i miss you.... Thursday, November 3, 2011 @ 7:59 PM
Today marks our 1year and 5month but sadly, we aren't together. I bet he doesn't know that i'm writing about him and also doesn't have a clue that this blog exist. I really wish he could read everything i wrote about him.... :/ so anyway, i would like to say that i'm truly sorry for whatever mistakes i did to you from the past until now. By the look of it, i don't think i'm leading you to a good life its because i'm scared to do so. Yea, i wanted to message you but i just got fucking guts. Super dissappointed in myself. Honestly, i've not really move on from you. My mind is not thinking about you, but my heart is still there for you. I really want a smile for you... I really have been thinking, am i still on your mind? :/ i really want to know that answer and how you even feel about me right this second. i really miss you presence. you super loud laugh, wide smile, just EVERYTHING. i regret doing things that make you mad at the past, really. i hate myself for loosing someone like you. you're just everywhere.... i always keep thinking how am i suppose to lead you through life. i dunno whats the first time to take. talk? text? call? idk.... i just hope he wont take it that im like the rest of his ex, really. he's been my worse and my best. no matter how much i try to forget about him, i just cant. everytime i want to make it up to you, my mind went blank. so, today is suppose to be the day where we sent each other long messages, the day where we should be feeling happy and lucky to have each other, the day when we're suppose to say i love you, the day when we both have a smile on our face. but looks like, we don't. :( i just really wanna make it up to you, i really do! i just miss you yknow....
